BarefootinBoston

So, E and I went to his doctors this afternoon and my worst fear was confirmed, she offered NO help.  She said that he is on the ‘curve’ still even though he’s spitting up a ton (she saw him for 10-15 minutes and he spit up FOUR times while she was in the room with us.  She suggested we try soy formula and then go from there.  I do not want to put him on any medicine…we are trying so hard to keep his body free of toxins by making our own organic baby food, using only organic, natural cleansers, etc. so I am thinking we are just going to have to deal with his crazy spitting up.

And she offered no help in terms of his fussiness.  Oy, what to do now.  Just hope that things improve and put a positive spin on it all.  I at least am the one that gets to spend time with him and watch him grow and help him learn, not someone else, although there are times where I think about working again, only to realize that it would be so much more work for me.  I don’t know how you mothers out there work and raise such young children-you are amazing!

My adorable, charming, intelligent, bottomless pit son knows how to push all my buttons. I suppose it’s not intentional. Something is up with him, and I have no idea what it is. He eats like a champ, sleeps ok at night. His napping during the day is so god awful. I swear I can set time by the way he naps. Rarely will he sleep more than 30 minutes, and it is generally around the 30 minute mark where he will wake up. Um…you’re 6 months old there E, don’t you need more than 2 hours of naps during the day. I suppose I can tell that he’s not getting sufficient sleep based on the fact that he is never able to be awake for more than 1 to 1.5 hours without getting fussy and needing another nap (falling asleep within 5 minutes of putting him in his crib). Maybe this is the way he is. His doctor wasn’t the least bit helpful. “You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink” was her response when I asked about lengthening his naps. Great, thanks for your help there Doctor.

The thing I don’t understand is that if I leave him in his crib, let him cry for a little while, he’ll sometimes go back to sleep. Now, to anyone but me apparently, this seems ok. But I would think a routine would form, that he would be able to sleep more than 30 minutes without waking up crying before going back to bed. I do not want to create a sleep monster. I fear I have created a solids monster with the way E attacks his thrice daily feedings.

My main new years resolution was to accept E for E, not try to put him into this mold of what he should be, how he should be acting, how he should be developing. Easier said than done. I was talking with my friend MJ yesterday and explained to her that I am like a cup and right now, I am full. Between Jack’s death, hunting for a new apartment, dealing with a land lord who was trying to screw us, E’s cranky state is the icing on the cake. And since I am home with him all day, that is what the focus is on. Boy do I need some yoga!

We have a doctor’s appointment on Thursday…hopefully his crankiness will be solved by then. I think it’s the incessent fussing that I suppose I am really upset about, the naps are naps. When he’s cranky for more than half the time he is awake (and he’s full, changed, all the things that they say babies get cranky about have been checked) something is up. It’s just figuring out what it is that is the problem.

The amazing part is, no matter how frustrated I am with E, all it takes is a simple smile from him to change the whole thing. It’s incredible. He can play me better than anyone else. And to think this is just the start.

Well, I think my son is getting his first tooth…I THINK that is what it is. He has been so incredibly fussy the past couple of weeks, and for the past few days, even more so. There’s a small white bump on his lower gums….so there may be a tooth arriving soon.

And apparently I spoke too soon…he was sleeping through the night, 8/9 hours for almost a week and has now decided that I don’t need that much sleep. He is waking up every 3-5 hours to be fed at night. I honestly thought things had finally turned for the better. But I guess that’s the deal with kids, you never quite know what is going to happen next. I really need to stop with the expectations. It makes life too difficult. Just take it day for day until he is much older I suppose.

So I have a fair that I am doing this Saturday and am a little nervous-I don’t have anyone coming with me, so I’m wondering how I’ll even make it to the bathroom! Guess no coffee for me that morning.