I went and visited my mother, and mother in law, the past couple of days. I was getting a bit bored being around here and wanted a change of scenery. So E and I hopped in the car and went up north. I was hoping to get maybe a little break from E, just a little. I did get to sleep in, but wasn’t really given much of a break. I guess I can’t ask for it all.
While I was there, I was talking with my mother about my grandparents. They are moving into a retirement facility (not a ‘home’) in a few weeks. My grandfather has immaculate degeneration and my grandmother is bi polar. Makes for quite the pair. My grandmother is also in the early stages of Alzheimer’s, so, it’s a bit messy. My poor grandfather, not really being able to see much, has to cook for the both of them since my grandmother just ‘doesn’t feel like it’. Boy, I hope that this is not the situation I get in with A when I get older.
I’m truly scared of the bi polar, manic depressive thing. It’s apparently hereditary. I feel like I already see parts of it in my mother. She isn’t really manic or depressive, but some things just don’t seem right. And sometimes I find myself saying or doing things my mother has done, and it makes me worry.
The worst part is, I can’t do anything about it. Well, I can be aware and educate myself on the sympotoms, therapy, etc., but it’s not like some other illnesses where you can (or we are told you can) partake in this or that to at least make the chances less.
So, although I’m a ‘mere’ 26, I’m already thinking of what may be happening to me 30, 40 years down the line. Yikes.
