You would think I could see past the end and just realize that we are doing what we need to make our dog happy. I can’t. I am having the hardest possible time with this-crying so much and just feeling absolutely horrible. I of course am making sure to cuddle Jack as much as he’ll let me and just spend more time with him yet it’s very difficult with my babe around too.
I made the difficult decision to go with my husband to have Jack put down. At first I didn’t want anything to do with it, but then realized that I may regret it later, whereas I will never regret going with him. I really do like to believe that there’s something after we all physically leave this planet-I hope Jack will be playing with my childhood dog Liza who died a couple years ago, but the worst part is no one knows.
I do know that I will miss him tremendously…I just can’t imagine how empty our house is going to feel without him walking about, even if it were pacing at the end.
Enough typing about him-I’m going to go spend some time with him
