I am reading yet another book about being at stay at home mother. Sometimes it takes me reading these books to put a different spin on my life or even realize that other women are out there feeling the same thing. I tell myself often that I am so happy to be raising E. I wouldn’t want anyone else doing it. Yet, as discussed in this book I’m reading, the days that are great are amazing. The days that are terrible are truly awful.
E has been exploring his voice recently and has discovered he can do this shrilly scream. He tests this out while at stores waiting in line, driving, at home, it seems pretty often that he’s doing this. I’d like to think that he’s just realizing the different sounds he can make. I really don’t want to think he’s entering the defiant stage. So for now, I have stuck with ignoring the shrilly scream. I’m not sure that’s what I really want to be doing, but it’s all I can be consistent with now.
Yet we are on the verge of the defiant time. Just the other day E didn’t get his way, so he threw the toy he was holding, started screaming and ran down the hallway. We just let him do it. But of course, A and I looked at each other with the “Oh no-here it comes” look.
There was an interesting post the other day on frugaldad about the common comment said by parents who both work, or even people who don’t have children, that you (being any stay at home mother) are so lucky to be able to stay at home.
It put an interesting perspective on things. Sure, we are fortunate that A’s job provides us enough so that we can get by, but then again he has worked hard to get where he is. But seriously, being a teacher, how much money would I bring home after childcare? Is it really worth it to our family to have someone else raise our son so that I can make a measly amount of money.
And I am not in any way belittling the people who HAVE to work. I just think that my being able to stay home isn’t due to luck. It’s a choice A and I made, and we have to cut many corners to stick with this choice. Ah….perspective.
So, my sister moved in with us June 1st. For the past month she’s been around searching for a job. Well, she’s found one and started work yesterday. I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed her company until yesterday when I was so lonely. It’s so nice to have an adult to talk to throughout the day.
I have been saying it for weeks now, but I really need to get out and go to some Watertown mom’s groups. I have no motivation for it at all though. I feel like I put so much into going places in my old town that now I have no oomph left. The days just go by so much faster and are so much more enjoyable when E and I are out and about. These groups, and meeting up with friends, is great since it’s usually a ‘free’ thing. Otherwise when E and I head out it’s to do some grocery shopping, run errands, etc. I am very excited for him to be a bit bigger and enjoy going places like the Children’s Museum!
But for now, it’s just me and he around the house, waiting for A and K to come home to make our lives a bit livelier.
